Normally in this blog, I write about software engineering and music. This post is about a topic even more personal to me: coping with chronic pain, while still functioning at a high level and enjoying life. If that feels weird to you, feel free to skip this post. Itâs OK. :)
From birth, and in exciting new ways since then, my body has been extraordinarily difficult to live in and with. I have several mostly-invisible disabilities that severely limit what I can physically do, and when, and to what extent. And they affect my emotional state and outlook. In spite of that, I have managed to live a full and adventurous life.
Iâm writing this because over the years people have asked me about it privately, such as other people with some of the same disabilites as me, in my profession, or whatever. Lately, some more people close to me are newly experiencing chronic pain, too. This post is an expanded version of an answer I posted on Twitter to someone who was asking how to cope.
Here are some thoughts about things that have worked for me. In the hope that it helps someone else, here goes.
Do not goof around with your prescribed medications. Take them all in exactly the right doses at exactly the right times, and communicate regularly with your doctor(s) about how they make you feel. Request and make changes if necessary. Take notes so you donât forget any details. Set alarms or notifications so you donât miss any.
If you have pain related to eating, it is extra important to watch what, and when, you eat. Cultivate a list of safe foods, happy foods, bad-but-fun foods to eat rarely, and so on. Again, take notes if that helps.
Pretty much everyone needs to drink more water than they do.
I know this is good advice because I generally donât follow it, and I generally pay the price.
You might not be able to do much; I certainly canât. But do what you can, when you can, even if itâs just walking or stretching. Do it on your terms, but do it. Over time youâll be able to do more.
Donât let people take up what little energy you may have left on things that are not valuable to you. Whenever you do spend energy, make it on your terms and on your schedule, to the extent possible. You will not always be able to get as much control as you want, but you can get some if you take it.
Unfortunately, this can make you difficult to deal with. (People who know me are nodding vigorously right now.) Itâs your responsibility to explain to people why you need to control your time and energy so carefully. That can mean you have to talk about uncomfortable things, such as health and pain. You donât have to go into a whole lot of detail, but your colleagues, family, and friends do need to know why you canât do that thing that day or have to postpone the thing until tomorrow, or whatever.
When you are able to do the thing, follow through. If people trust that you will be reliable, you can sometimes retain more control.
Another thing that helps you keep control, without incurring a cost on others, is to reduce physical and schedule clutter. Every material thing in your life, every digital thing, everything on your to-do list, and everything in your calendar require your active management and engagement. Even if you donât realize it, they are all taking up âspaceâ in your mind and emotions. Various authors like Dinah Sanders and Marie Kondo have books and blogs and so on dedicated to helping people de-clutter. But you donât necessarily need to buy or read anything (unless that helps). Just be mindful of whether or not you need the thing, whether or not youâre really going to ever use or do the thing. (Have you even touched it in the past year?) If not, give it away or throw it away.
This can be difficult, because it can mean giving up illusions. Youâll say to yourself, âIâll definitely build this robot someday! I canât throw away all these servo motors!â You might not ever build the robotâââbut giving it up can free up resources for more realistic goals and dreams.
You donât have to (and shouldnât) go to some âminimalistâ extreme, and you donât have to (and shouldnât) throw away things you love or need. And you donât necessarily need a âreasonâ to love a thing. Just try to be mindful of whether you really do love or need the thing.
Youâre going to need to rest, so plan to. This may require changing your work or family schedule. This can be difficult, but itâs better than the alternative: crashing hard. You can achieve more of your goals with work and rest than you can by pretending that you donât need to rest and trying to work through pain.
Pain eats up a lot of your energy. Even more than you realize. When pain hits, you need to rest. Rest whenever you can, so that you can work whenever you can.
I get a lot of physical and psychological comfort from knowing that I have what I need with me at all times.
Find small pleasures, comforts, and safeties, and bring them with you in a backpack or bag that you always carry. Be mindful to realize anything you feel like you need: a towel, spare socks and underwear, snacks, water, hand sanitizer, whatever. Definitely any necessary medications. Any time you find yourself wishing for something but not having it, pack it in your bag.
Meditation helps you focus on what you want to achieve and how you want to feel. In my experience it is also a pretty good way to control pain, sometimes including severe pain. Definitely take necessary medications that your doctor has prescribed! You canât ignore pain through will alone any more than you can levitate. But with meditation you can train yourself to keep some perspective and control even in bad situations.
There are many books about various meditation techniques. Try reading a couple different ones. But the gist of them all is: focus on 1 thing, such as your breathing; and observe your mind, your body, and the world without judgement and without letting them control you or each other. This is all easier said than done, of course, but practice works.
Please feel free to email me if you have more ideas that you think I should add here. (Iâll keep everything confidential, of course.)